just getting shit out there

Been up all night messing around on the computer fixing my blog page. Things have to be perfect for me and they still aren't perfect. last night was hell. besides not being able to find and stay in a vein, got into fight with my man. While he was out scoring a dude that I have known since I was in my twenties road his bike over. Come to find out he moved to the area I now live six months after me. Never knew until about four or five days ago. so anyways, getting home from my kids baseball practice my middle son was telling me that someone is hiding behind the white van across the street from my house. I live in a nice suburb where people don't do the things that tweekers do. I told the boys lets get inside. My oldest told me to lock the door. Within 30 seconds to a minute after locking the door, my door bell rings. It him, asking me if his chick is here, as that was going on my man pulls in and sees him standing at my door talking to me. I saw my mans face and he was not happy. My man doesn't trip on me, but since we have been tweeking  again for the past two months after him having three years clean and me, well I only had about eight months clean. I ended up talking to this guy at my front door with the door open for a minute. I was pissed and wanted to confront him about his tripping on his wife. Hes is tripping on the fact that we both, her and I have no female friends. I have my man and my kids, she has him, her man, and her daughter who is staying with her mom. All we want to do his just have some girl time, talk about girl stuff. I need some one to talk to that can understand what I am going through. I am fucked up on drugs, hooked on the needle, and very unhappy with myself. I confronted him and he said he was cool about it and understands. He just thought that I wanted to hook up with her. Sorry buddy that's not me. Maybe fifteen years ago when I was younger, with no kids, and the freedom of doing drugs and nobody giving me shit for what I was doing. I was shocked. I guess we will see what happens today. She has already called me wanting to get the hell out of her house. But if she comes over we have to hide her car, sounds like to me that he is still going to trip on her and I being friends. I was trying to get him and my man to be friends but my man doesn't really like him. He will be cool with him, but he doesn't want to be friends with him. Even though we are using dope, we both still go to work. There is too much drama that comes with those two and I have only been hanging around them for fives days Haven't seen this much drama since i was in my hometown with all the tweekers.